Today I write this as a mother whose heart is broken. I am writing as a mom who wanted so much for her children. As I watch their lives unfold and some of the decisions they've made. I can't begin to explain the depth of my sorrow. When I think of the sacrifices that were made for them. The places we've traveled together. All of the sporting events I've attended. You know the one mother that's the loudest in the group. Yeah, that was me. I always wanted to make sure that the knew I was present. Please understand that I've never been and will never be perfect. I have my share of shortcoming.
I am sure that's how my grandparents and parents felt about me. When I think of the sacrifices that were made for me. When my grandmother did her best to give us what she didn't have. My grandfather worked in asbestos for 38 years to put food on our table. And a much bigger sacrifice was made on my behalf and yours. That was the sacrifice on the cross. I realize that it was made for each of us. For me this is so personal I am talking about my relationship with the Lord. I am thinking of all the times that I disappointed him. The times when he said, go right Anita and of course, I went to the left. When I would get that knowing in my spirit to run and instead I stayed.
How do I get past the things that hurt so deeply? Where do I go to process my pain? I go to the only place I know to go. I go to the word of God. I go to his promises which are yes and amen. I fall into the arms of a loving God who knows me better than I know myself. I tell him all about what I am experiencing at the time. I wait for his comfort and love to over take me. After all he says, he will never leave me nor forsake me. Like everything else in this life this too shall pass. Until then I will stand on the promises of God. My hope for you is that you too will find rest and peace in the Lord. Be encouraged because you are not forgotten. I am always here to: Help you face your future with a smile!
Make allowance for each other’s faults, and forgive anyone who offends you. Remember, the Lord forgave you, so you must forgive others. Colossians 3:13 NLT version
May God give you more and more grace and peace as you grow in your knowledge of God and Jesus our Lord. By his divine power, God has given us everything we need for living a godly life. We have received all of this by coming to know him, the one who called us to himself by means of his marvelous glory and excellence. 2 Peter 1:2-3 NLT version